Goodbye is always hard no matter if it's a animal or person

 I am 26years old.. And believe me I met tons of great people in my life. Saying GOODBYE might be one of the most dreadful emotion that I  have personally experienced. Nobody enjoys losing people they cared about, but part of life is we  keep moving on cause the clock never stops ticking so therefore we need to follows that ticking like the seconds or minutes as continues. In my 26years of living I have learned to love my friends like they were my family. To be honest some drives me crazy or goofy but in the end I wouldn't have it any other way. Don't get me wrong love is a very strong word. Theres someone that has inspired me and also giving me the chance of understanding the meaning of friendship..with the all the rough patch that we endure everyday in the end we became best friends and sisters.. That's is the story of GUODAN & ANNA...I  will try to do my best to keep this short and sweet of course.. guodan has always been the outspoken and  very likeable person. In my opinion she's also the strongest person I have met in life..not only has she had 2 heart operation. In school girls would make fun of her because of the way she speaks. I guess sometimes people don't understands  is that not only did she learned a totally different language at the same time she had to adapt the change of a new country. Believe me that's very difficult to experience all at once.. As times passed by she got more comfortable. She always been a people person and kept busy..unlike me she had tons of energy and wasn't ever shy around anyone. She was my closed friend at the orphanage but when we got adopted by the same family we became sisters. In America she become my older sister who I followed around like a puppy. We were always closed but the older we got the closer we became if u can believe that.. When she apply for a job at fairview haven of course a year or so  later I followed her. Our relationship is very unique. It's something I can't explain in words if you were around us we could of been sisters by blood and nobody could of tell.. She touched my heart in so many ways.. Guodan loved to be surround with people.. Who enjoys camping and shopping.. Sadly as of 2012 in august I had to let her go. That was one of the most difficult weeks in my life but at the same time we went camping in TurkeyRun Indiana with friends. Her car accident happened the day we got home from Indiana.. Like our friendship I was always with her.  The day of the accident on a sunny bright august she was driving and i was right next to her.  I am so thankful that God let her In my life and let me be with her till her last breath.. 

Mickie from Mcdonalds

Here's my Mickie...

There's a reason for Hope

It's a Tuesday morning full of snow yes I live in Illinois I truly enjoy all four seasons..family has always been so important to me..sometimes I wonder if I ever will find someone to be my partner in crime..well my life has been like a roller coaster..it seems like people or pets that I have took for granted neither runaway or passed away..please don't feel sorry for me. I guess over all that traumatic experience I have learned that everyday I have to live life like it's my last breath..people might say moving on its difficult their right.. I always say" unless you walk in my shoes please don't judge me..cause we each have a different journey or story to tell...yet at this moment I am not ready to give you guys all my secrets yet.. I am the type of person where I have to get comfortable before I start talking.. Yes I am a cat lover so beware I treated them like my babies if u can believe that.. On a Tuesday night in November my family and I was visiting my grandma at a nursing home like 20 miles from our house, the unexpected thing happen to us when we went to McDonalds driveway in Pontiac,IL for supper.. My dear mother was grabbing her food and all of sudden we heard a kitten meowing by the trash can under the bushes..it's a chilly night of course my mom has a heart of gold. She always had a weakness for cats and people in general.  My brother Alex quickly walkout of the our car grab the gray and white shaking kitten and she became our pet before Christmas..And sadly we all felt in love with her the moment we met her.. On the way home we came up with the name Micky.


It's a Saturday night. I met this boy name Jordan.. He had a great personality and talked without a breath it seems like.. Looking at him made me have a flashback of my child in China at the orphanage.  And that my folks is my next story!!